Hit the pause button

Have you ever just wanted to be like the guy in the movie Click and pause time?

Even just to get five minutes peace, enjoy a hot cup of tea or do anything uninterrupted?

I am feeling so drained and overwhelmed right now that I would love that little gadget.

Just to pause life.
Pause the kids.
Pause the cooking.
Pause the cleaning.
Pause the washing & drying.
Pause LIFE.

I just want to sleep for a very long time, recharge, then do all the things that hinder me everyday.

I am just so fed up of feeling like a cook and a maid, just once I would like to not have to do any cooking and have a meal prepared for me – take out doesn’t count as I always have to call that in anyway, I would like to not have to do any washing, just one it would be nice for it to be done for me, I would like not to be the only one who takes out the rubbish every single day.

I realise this may not seem like a tall order, but when I am the stay at home mum who doesn’t earn any money I am expected to do all the things and not get time off.

If I wasn’t here, my house would crumble, I wonder how long they would last without me?

How long until they notice the dishes piled up because I didn’t do them?

How long before they realise they don’t have a clean uniform for school or shirt for work?

HOW LONG BEFORE THEY DO IT?

Maybe I should go on strike – but then nothing would change as I would see it all and just do it anyway.

I am burning myself out by living in a perpetual groundhog day which I only have myself to blame for, the new year is coming and something needs to change…..

This is just a little vent, and it feels good to get it out, now I’m off to put a load of washing on, later’s!!!!