7. A difficult time in your life.
Oh tough one so early on in the month!
For me it was dealing with PND after the birth of Jack. It was hard for me and my family to understand what I was going through as none of us had experienced it before. Jack was born at 36 weeks by c-section and it was everything I didnt want in a birth (at that time)
It was especially hard on me as now I am left feeling guilty of how I felt towards him.
I waited until he was 9 months before seeking help and it was a trying time for me to admit that something was serious was wrong. It was the point where I wanted to drive my car into the canal that was the icing on the cake that coupled with hubby telling me to get my “fucking head seen too” his exact words by the way. I remember breaking down in the Dr office and when I did the PND test I scored 21 – which was worrisome high. I was prescribed anti-depressants and sent on my way with weekly visit follow up from my health visitor.
I was on the tablets for 3 years and had to come off them cold turkey as discovered I was pregnant with Max. I have been off them every since and whilst I have been fine after the birth of Max and Lucy there are still days when the black cloud comes over me but I manage to not let it take hold.
But then again I am a great pretender…